[] i got a haircut
[] soccer saturdays in prospect park have begun
[] my 27th birthday came and passed
[] heatwaves happened
[] i don't know what i'm doing
[] friends and i made pasta from scratch
[] i wanted a dog around to walk at night
[] fruit sorbet was ate
[] i slept once a day on average
[] []
it's weird because having set the goal of this not being a place to simply jot things down as they happen, well, i struggle to find myself knowing what to write all of the time. i guess that's a symptom of a more general problem, but i don't want to just write about my daily routine
i've taken the camera out a bit more and i think i'm sort of getting a better understanding of it. i'm still trying to avoid doing processing on images partly because of a lack of knowledge, partly because i want images to look like what they looked like. i've been keeping busy, sometimes more so than i would've expected. but i'm not sure what it's leading to
i do feel like i've been avoiding taking advantage of creative outlets for quite some time. using the camera helps alleviate that, but not as much as needed. on that point, i am going to try to rekindle my website and start writing / drawing / something again. i honestly don't know what i'm doing. i just know that i'm feeling like instead of just being lost that i'm really doing nothing. and that's not a good thing
so, i spent a brief while kind of "reloading" things and will have to go from there. i will try - seriously, i will
i have had for the past month, months, moons this sentiment that i have stopped doing things that i was doing years ago that were healthy for me, whether they be physical, mental, whatever kind of things. i think not doing them has affected me to a point and it's weird to think that maybe i had things more right then than i do now. scary to think that, too
the world is still a scary place. offices are still closing and people are still reeling in parts, but i guess at the end of the day what i'm really left wondering is how many people get to do what they want to do? one of my biggest problems has always been not knowing what to focus on. it persists
rather than rant on i will withhold in the hopes of updating this again soon, let's say within a week. i have a few interesting things coming up and maybe one or more will inspire some smiles or tears or frowns or giggles. but at least something
the website to be reopened gradual-like is www.optimismitself.com
below i'm posting one of the views i like most from around here. not really for the sight, if that makes sense, but for the calm associated with it; i took the shot from a little slip that juts out into the water and is so incredibly quiet for brooklyn. it just is the kind of place that makes you sense peace
